oh, 5 years ago me…
just after she asked me to get my “snow pants on and come snowboard with me momma!”
just after I laughed that I can’t snowboard!
just after she zipped down the hill saying, “I bet most people from Guatemala can’t do this”
just out of the blue…
just after coming in from a busy day…
just a bit after all that when I was getting dinner finished up for this family of ten…
“Momma you are such a great momma… thank you for being so great”
“Oh yeah?…what’s so great?”I say just after my breath catches in my throat.
“because you taught me math… and to be myself even when I want to be just like everyone else… and you make great food… and you teaching me math has helped me a lot. Those are no small things.”
it’s that “you taught me math” that makes me want to reach back to the me 5years ago and tell her it’s going to be alright. I want to grab that 5-years-ago-me… and tell her not to loose sleep…so.much.sleep….
that they will be okay
they will be attached
they will learn to read
they will love
they will love to learn!
they will stand up for themselves
they will have a heart that can love 2 mothers
they will help lead a congregation in worship of a God that they truly truly love.
they will be able to love those who abandon them… because they “get” what it means to have a broken heart.
and by God…
she will not just learn math…
she will love it.
so don’t loose so much sleep momma… you got this!