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Ann Voskamp and Lady Gaga

August 9, 2011

It seems there are times when my soul swells painful raw and irritated from rubbing against the skin it is within.

Where the very pulse of A Heart can be felt where the two fight for the same space. One wanting to burst forth~ the other wanting to pull back. The flesh fights back to constrict the soul and with the rubbing noise of a balloon the soul pushes back against the epidermis.

The thin but strong layer of skin wrapped pink with itchy self – full of a soul swelled with purpose too big for the constraints put on it.
My soul gets too big for my body…it wants to do more then my flesh will allow…more then my brain says we can.
What to do?
Where to start?

And Ann in her quiet corner shouting whispers laced with flowers soothed in piano notes….

pleading people
to do….
something.
To count what you have as eucharisteo and to start looking outward. Out there where there are big problems and children are dying and mothers are having to watch.

When I believe the Edenic lie that God doesn’t care — is that the excuse to turn away, to spread the lie that God doesn’t care — when maybe the truth is that it’s humanity that doesn’t care?

If we love because He first loved us… do we now care, because we know He did first care, has always cared, will always care and has the nail scars to definitively prove it. If all the world believed the truth of God’s character — that God cares —- wouldn’t this world become a caring place?

He cares, so we care; He loved first, so we love now. ~Ann Voskamp, 2011.

It rolls in my mind all day. What proof do I have that I care? I could list the ways. But they aren’t enough.
My soul rubs uncomfortable again, against the raw patches of skin. The speckled flesh weakens. The soul is stronger.

In the car with the kids the music turned up, years of announcing on the radio leaving an array of stations I browse through and an unexpected chorus blares true…

I’m on the edge of glory, and I’m hanging on a moment of truth
Out on the edge of glory, and I’m hanging on a moment with you
I’m on the edge, the edge, the edge, the edge, the edge, the edge, the edge,
I’m on the edge of glory, and I’m hanging on a moment with you
I’m on the edge with you.

I’m on the edge with you
I’m on the edge with you ~Lady Gaga * Edge of Glory

Like a mother at the start of an adoption journey…How do I say “yes” to some and left with “I will pray” for the others?

How are we not left in analysis paralysis when there is so much to do?

You just start…………………..
Compassion International’s African Drought help
Muzunga Mama Ministries

W.A.R. International
The Love of Christ Ministries.
Carrie suggested: Student’s International

Please leave some of the organizations you like in the comments section (with a link , if you can) and I will be more then happy to add them to this list. We can all do more.~T

7 Comments leave one →
  1. August 9, 2011 9:01 am

    I always said it should be a worship song. Little monsters ? More like tiny sarafins…raising their hands in the air

    • August 9, 2011 9:24 am

      Side note…when you met gaga was she still ” on” or does she ever act normal?
      T

  2. August 9, 2011 9:30 am

    A good challenge….how do we say yes to some and I pray for others…how not to be paralyzed by the conflict in our hearts ….I love Elizabeth Elliott…she has a saying….Just do the next thing….
    Blessings~

    • August 9, 2011 10:03 am

      Oh I would love to shout that…”do the next thing”!!!
      After the realization of how many times in a day we are truly blessed…so much so that we fill up gratitude journals…. Now do the next thing…
      He loved us… Now get out there and start pouring His love out on others. How much do our greedy selves need before we feel like we can give some of it away?!?!
      My soul potential is ballooning up against my flesh today.
      Good thought, thank you for sharing the quote,
      T

  3. August 9, 2011 11:37 am

    Great post – I struggle with that too, getting caught in the paralysis of knowing how much there is to do. But you are right, getting stuck and not doing anything is the worst response. You just start, do the next thing, take a step.

    I love Students International here in Guatemala. http://www.siguatemala.com

  4. October 7, 2011 11:21 am

    tlc.org.za
    The Love of Christ Ministries… South Africa/ A Home for Abandoned Babies where they will find their forever families somewhere around the world.

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