Of God and goldfish.
“Ma’am” he says sheepishly with a thick Appalacia accent. I turn from blogging, my camera still hooked to the computer. “ma’am… ummm… there are goldfish in your driveway. Where would you like um.” These workers are an interesting sort but even this confuses me.
“What the heck are you talking about?” I eject my camera and wonder what is going to happen next around here. Will I even get this post typed out?
“Well… ya had that pond… the goldfish pond? and we didn’t know you had goldfish in it… we poured it out in the driveway and well… there are goldfish all down your driveway. Is there anywhere you would like um?” He just stands there holding the door open. Just stands there in the rain.
“Let me get my boots.” I abandon the post I just know I am supposed to write. This one, which I will get too… but goldfish are in my driveway… and well.. I need to get my boots.
I come around the corner to a man with a shovel and a bucket…”The names David, David Frank two names one great guy…” Yes he really said that.
“Well David, David Frank it sounds like you have a goldfish problem….”
“I caught all your fish I put them in your other pond.” I will save you the twenty minute conversation I had in the rain with David,David Frank while he explained how he had no idea there were goldfish in my goldfish pond.
You can imagine it was riveting.
Now onto the original post which must be so important for you to know…that goldfish would be dumped in my driveway to distract me from finishing it… But hang the goldfish I will finish this post….
When I go to a still spot to find Him…. I ask what would He want me to pray for. For three weeks now, it has been about you. I know this and that about you but not enough to pray specifically. When tragedy struck I felt even more then I had before… He is thinking about you. He thinks about you so much He tells others to hold you up in prayer. When they come to Him to discuss His wants and ways…He says your name. Your name.
So when you wonder if your motivation is in the right spot…or you are being selfish in your prayers… He is saying your name to others. You wonder if the church is with you and if the community has formed around you…. He is speaking your name to others.
It amazes me and makes me realize. My God speaks our names. His desire is for His people. When self tells me, at times I am going alone; My God is speaking my name to others and I may not know it yet. But I am now remembering…many times in the past other names have been placed on my heart…because God spoke that persons name to me. I heard it because He first spoke it to me. So many people on this earth like a zillion tiny drops in a vast ocean…. and He takes the time to speak our individual names.
So this is what I want you to know. He is speaking your name to others… you may not know it every second… but I am telling you I heard your name. I have prayed for you and your family. Because I heard,when He took the time from His entire world, when He stopped…
Everyone needs to know this. It is something so intimate and profound … I have been driven to distraction all day…. So just remember… He speaks your name.
something so simple…so obvious… so individual and vulnerable….your name.