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Snow Boots in a Throne Room.

November 1, 2011

I search for You all morning.  I watch how the light falls on everything.
Always looking to see…to really see.
Will You be in the red headed boy’s  story, last nights  dream,  of ninja chipmunks….
in math problems accomplished easily…
in a weird story from the barn….
I glance out the window between the tea making and question answering.
I interrupt…”have you heard from God this morning?” to the boy with the vivid dreams
he blinks…and thinks, his fists still clenched defending his family from little ninjas,”nope just ninjas”

I nod…he continues.
I sip my tea and keep looking for You. I look out at the snow glazed field and know …just know…


I prepare a way.
I tuck each child into their lessons or chores.
I situate the toddler with snacks and drink, her favorite show
I zip up my boots….to slip away…to really search… Somedays you must wear boots to get to the throne room.
Because I know that nothing is worth not receiving and I am built to receive.

~

I sit on the edge of a throne room and yet I run spiritually toward something…
I want to gather and collect whatever You have, like always but always new

I am so hard on myself as I sit there…Why am I so easily distracted.
“such a noisy bird must be huge… I have to see what it is…” only to find the huge raucous is a tiny angry wren…. I guilt myself for spiritually stepping out for this….
this…wren…sigh.


I stop my prayer and go on searching ….
and all the comical chicken footprints in the snow all lead me back to my bench
any wonder?


So I sit and get determined …. determined to not stop…I bring those names that He speaks to me...those names He takes the time to bring to me again and again….I lift those up…I pray for Peaceful Learning…my husband…


what’s that?…a mouse?

I open just one eye…watching the grass clump move back and forth with it’s little visitor…

I click my camera on…
I squeeze my eyes tight…so tight…stay on task, no distractions
Bless my family this day….let us understand things we never knew before…let us gather everything you have for us…



my eyes open now and I watch the grass shift and I sit deflated that I am so easily distracted…
I sit there and give myself a hard time.
I think how I will talk to others about this….this easily distracted and how to overcome.
Such a sad thing we can’t stay on task…that I can’t stay on task.
I keep watching the invisible distraction as it shakes the blades of grass.
I don’t want this little thing to come into my house with the seasons changing…true statement on so many levels…I keep chiding myself… and then…

….
So loud over head.
like a shadow of a man with wings, briefly flys over me
landing across from me high up
yet huge

and again the sound that cracks the silence and all other birds go silent
all of those distractions stop…
the whole field more frozen then it was a moment ago.
my camera already on…all the settings ready to go…


~

He really does see us through a  filtering lens of Grace…gifts for us…just be willing to show up to gather all that He has for you!
~*~

*On a personal (backstory) note….I have seen this bald eagle a few times… but no one ever believes me and I haven’t had my camera with me…odd but true. We don’t really have bald eagles around here…The bald eagles normally nest near the river. The one other time I took a picture of a bald eagle was at the beach and it was so blurry, because I didn’t expect it to just be sitting there when I walked out onto the beach…Note to self; When you tell God you are there to gather…be ready!~T

34 Comments leave one →
  1. November 1, 2011 11:35 am

    His gifts are always to overflowing… that we might share<3
    Thank you for sharing such beauty again and again…
    I will be back for more 🙂

    • November 1, 2011 11:38 am

      You are seriously such a wonderful blessing…
      May God just pour out some awesome things to gather on you today.–Amen and Amen!
      T

  2. November 1, 2011 12:12 pm

    I think that sometimes the “distractions” are the gift, what catches our attention may be what we are supposed to see. Moses turned aside “to see this great sight, why the bush does not burn” and found himself on holy ground.

    You are obviously cultivating a culture of expectancy . . . desiring to hear God in all the ways He speaks to us. I love it! My favourite quote of all times and the theme of my blog is “Every happening great and small is a parable by which God speaks to us and the art of life is to get the message.” (Author Unknown)

    Blessings as you continue to gather His gracious gifts.

    • November 1, 2011 1:05 pm

      Oh I agree with you.
      There I was beating myself up over being distracted… but the “distraction” led/prepared me for seeing and being able to capture something awesome to share with others.
      All so good.
      T

  3. November 1, 2011 12:41 pm

    I like what you said about “wearing boots to the throne room” Love the photos and message. Bless you in your ‘gathering’ =) Thanks for swinging by my blog!

  4. November 1, 2011 1:30 pm

    Always grace. And so grateful for it. I love how He leaves gifts to affirm us and affirm who He is to us so that we stay firm in His grasp.

  5. November 1, 2011 2:22 pm

    Oh, I understand those distractions so well…sometimes I think I must be the worst prayer in the whole world…but He is present none the less. What a gift when He sends something our way to make obvious his presence.

    • November 1, 2011 6:29 pm

      oh you are so not the worst prayer in the world, lol… the fact that you show up is something in itself…
      but I know what you mean I always am giving myself a hard time about it.
      T

  6. November 1, 2011 3:06 pm

    Yes!!! We do just have to show up, don’t we??? I’ve always been so embarrassed to say how distracted I can be when praying, or just trying to “see!” I smiled when I saw that eagle. Isn’t it just like God to make a big tadoo with a “wow!” moment?????

    • November 1, 2011 6:29 pm

      I know!
      I love that I can share it here… so other people can feel a little less guilty about how easily we are all distracted.
      T

  7. November 1, 2011 4:13 pm

    Beautiful photos and I love the eagle. Great reminder with this post too. I am glad I came over from Jen’s blog to find you. Thanks for sharing

  8. Jessie Aitken permalink
    November 1, 2011 7:44 pm

    I had a really hard and stressful day, but this post gave me a moment of peace. Love it when our journeys intercept and without you even knowing, you say just the words I need to hear.

    • November 2, 2011 9:59 am

      okay miss jess… you come right over and we will work it out.
      i will hold your baby and you do what you need to.
      T

  9. November 1, 2011 10:41 pm

    Oh, oh, oh! A bald eagle? Really? Of course, really, I see it right there. This just makes me swoon. You, always looking, He always giving…but, my, to what lengths He will go to show he’s been there all along. Gorgeous.

    • November 2, 2011 9:59 am

      lol.. your first line was sort of my first thought…”umm…bald eagle?…no..but I can see it.”
      glad i could share.
      T

  10. Carol permalink
    November 2, 2011 7:21 am

    Thank you so much!! Why are we so hard on ourselfs? God is so very good and I want to seek Him always in every area. In boots and all. 🙂 Hugs and God Bless You!!

    • November 2, 2011 10:00 am

      i bet in this life more times out of ten we need boots to get out of this room an into a throne room.
      T

  11. November 2, 2011 9:21 am

    I love the pictures…I love that you “caught” the eagle…caught God’s affirming gift to your heart’s desire…
    Blessings sweet T..

  12. November 2, 2011 12:52 pm

    Lovely thoughts. I don’t really think we will ever be distraction free – and actually, wouldn’t it get boring if it was! As long as the distractions teach, encourage, challenge, inspire, touch, remind etc – then I welcome them 🙂 Enjoyed reading through this post, and looking at the photos! Still pretty much t-shirt weather here today – seems strange seeing snow on the photos! 🙂

    Glad I stopped by!

    Jo

  13. November 2, 2011 3:20 pm

    Hi T – wow, I loved all the photos. And your desire to receive. that is the attitude I should have more often. Great post. Thank you too, for linking up with me today. I really appreciate it. God bless
    Tracy

  14. November 3, 2011 12:25 am

    Your beautiful post reminds me of something I have been hearing lately.

    Isn’t this ALL of our testimony? That we thought life to be about finding a sacred place to get away to and “hear from God”, but He was there all along. Him, always teaching that the quietness we need is less from circumstances round about and more from *within* . . . wanting to show us He IS Emmanuel — God *with* us! God within.

    And just like you said, all the “distractions” of nature — they were given as your teachers! Your very leaders to the Throneroom. That we would see it in the two-year-old with the runny nose who just wet his pants (again!) and the loud bantering from the brothers who are supposed to be doing school, etc.
    These good and perfect gifts are to lead us to Him, too!
    No less holy and awesome than the bald eagle . . . if not a tad less majestic 😉

    Thanks! Confirmed some whispered truths for me today.

    • November 3, 2011 10:29 am

      oh I am so glad for that!!!
      don’t you love when you find God speaking what you need to hear to others so everywhere you go you are receiving.
      T

  15. November 3, 2011 12:46 am

    Btw, I had a similar theme to a recent post.
    I’ll give the link in case you’re interested:
    http://jasonandkelliwoodford.blogspot.com/2011/10/it-is-food.html

    (Not as nice pics as yours, for sure :))

    • November 3, 2011 10:30 am

      oh… thank you for the compliment.
      I came and read it… but I got interrupted before I could type the security code in…hope to be back today to respond.
      T

  16. November 3, 2011 11:00 am

    You know, I just love that little interaction about the ninjas. 🙂

  17. November 3, 2011 11:37 pm

    I’m glad for your distractions because they drew you out, they caused you to put boots on and go. I think we are so distracted that it actually takes a while to sift it all out and actually spend time on any real thought. Kids just might have something to do with that. I don’t think our ADD bothers God. We really all have spiritual ADD anyway; and he’s so patient with us.

  18. November 5, 2011 3:02 pm

    What wonderful and honest thoughts! How many times I have felt the same way as I am getting distracted while I am spending time with the King of Kings. But I continue to keep meeting with Him and He keeps listening to me.

    • November 7, 2011 6:55 am

      So many people are echoing the same thing… I wonder if we are all being spoken to in the distractions .
      T

  19. November 9, 2011 4:10 pm

    Hopping over from L.L.’s blog. Beautiful pictures…love how God in His grace shows up and how you sought Him out… so glad that you had your camera so you could show us the bald eagle.

    Thank you!

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