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To the woman who carried babies with me……

December 7, 2011

Keeping a close eye on my girls today…dear readers if you could take a moment to lift this high up in prayer…

Dear mother a half a world away,
Your girls… our girls are doing well… They grow strong and smart. They can hear the voice of God and speak Truth. I pray you are well. I pray a peace fills your heart and as a mother you know that you know our girls are prospering. I pray your heart heals… I am sure you had to silence many parts of it to walk away that day… I wish I could have been there to talk to you. I don’t know why you birthed them yet I get the honor of raising them. Do you know both times you were pregnant.. we were pregnant together… we carried our babies together? I pray people into your life which can speak healing to you… I wish it were me.
But I pray as a mother you know I am doing my very best , because they are my daughters and I love them fiercely…and it hasn’t always been easy  yet I would gladly stand in the gap and go through it all again… because I love them fiercely. I will continue to do my very best. I love you… and I love them. I know last year I railed against the memory of you while I wiped their sweaty hair from their face… please forgive me.  Know that on this day…when you walked away, they forgive you… I forgive you… Please forgive yourself…. I want healing for everyone. May a peace that passes all understanding , in this confusing time, fall on you today and forever.
The woman who will do her very best with our daughters.

19 Comments leave one →
  1. emily m. permalink
    December 7, 2011 12:21 pm

    Blessings on you and she and the remarkable girls He has gifted you both with, praying by the Spirit, unceasingly for you today… healing, life,fruitfulness, redemption, abundant fullness…

  2. December 7, 2011 2:49 pm

    beautiful letter..beautiful heart for the woman who gave you these precious gifts…
    Prayers today for your girls…your family….and a lady in a far away land…

  3. December 7, 2011 3:31 pm

    Such a beautiful letter, T. I pray their birth mother embraces forgiveness for herself. What a gift that her children found themselves planted in your heart . . . the heart of your family.

    • December 7, 2011 5:17 pm

      I don’t know why peoples lives go the directions they do.. but I am so thankful that ours is set to go together.

  4. Pastor Glenn permalink
    December 7, 2011 4:21 pm

    Thank you for putting into words what I believe many mothers have felt or are feeling both with children they have birth and children they have adopted. I sense the Anointing drop…by drop…by drop………

  5. December 7, 2011 4:29 pm

    When someone sits down to write, and truly opens their heart and bravely bleeds truth and honest emotion, well, there is a unique and beautiful power in that. Power to touch souls. Power to grant forgiveness. Power to heal wounds too long open and hurting. Thank you for opening your heart in this way here. Your daughters are blessed to call you mother; the mother who carried them is blessed to have partnered with you in their becoming. This letter touched me. Thank you so much.

    • December 7, 2011 5:20 pm

      Your comment has really touched me so thank you for that. It was a hard letter to put out there for others to read and judge or love in their minds.. but I know there are mothers (of all kinds) out there that need to read the are forgiven… and wanted to put it out there for her especially and since I can’t seem to find her.. I just wanted to put it out there… in prayer and in type.. she is forgiven and I hope she can find forgiveness for herself…. I just want healing for everyone.
      Thank you for taking the time to see and to sense what I wrote.
      Be blessed,

  6. December 7, 2011 5:21 pm

    a tear in my eye, a lump in my throat , and ache in my heart. This is a balm, thank you for sharing with us, the ones given the title “mommy” once again, because of someone else letting go of it………

  7. December 8, 2011 10:55 am

    teary, weepy – my heart loves your mother heart. You tell a great truth in your story, in your letter – you reach out to someone who created hurt to someone you love, someone who made it difficult to you – and yet you reach out to wrap your spirit arms around her and pull her into His love.

    It reminds me of a time another school boy threatened a son – and instead of railing against him, I prayed for him, knowing he needed God’s love, comfort, healing – someone who would fight for him.

    Your mother love is simply beautiful; how you reach to the other mother – well, that is the call of God on each of us! Powerful, T! Powerful!

    • December 8, 2011 7:57 pm

      Thank you for your thought filled comment.
      So much hurt and happiness in adoption…it’s all part of it.
      To pray for healing for everyone is the best i can do.

  8. December 8, 2011 7:11 pm

    I found you through the blog hop.
    I do not know the details of your adoption, but I am an adoptive moms myself. My daughter was born premature, her mother abandoned her at the hospital…and that is all we know. But I know there is more, there is more to the story. This has been the first time I have thought about Nina’s birth mom (this Christmas season) and I find your post moving and touching. Thank you so much for sharing this!
    When you get a chance, stop by and say hi.e

  9. December 9, 2011 1:49 pm

    oh, this is so tender and powerful, sister. a beautiful compassionate prayer. xo

  10. December 16, 2011 8:00 am

    O so beautifully spoken… your heart burst forth with all that pain love that calls forth healing from God where we can’t give it… believing for all to be well.
    praying and believing with you

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