Trust Scurvy
I don’t know that I can write on trust.
If trust was vitamin c…I would have scurvy.
A child in the 80’s when divorce was all the fashion I was shuttled between a house of abuse and returned to one which washed me in guilt for going to the other house all creating an internal emotional electrical storm in my young self that I kept a tight grip on. The electrical storm crossing and snipping wires of trust.
But the great thing is I really don’t need too much…. I do have some…. but what is enough trust…
so i relax knowing…
I am not in charge.
You are not in charge
Not in control.
So my trust scurvy is my own little prison… but it doesn’t have to stop me from accomplishing all that He has for me.
There have been airplane rides where I didn’t trust the airplane….doesn’t matter. The plane doesn’t need me to trust it…it isn’t about me.
There have been streets I have walked down and I didn’t trust the darkness….doesn’t matter. The darkness didn’t rely on my level of trust to keep me safe.
Anxiety attacks that I thought would surely crush me and ruin me for good… but luckily my level of trust wasn’t the end all be all….if it had been about me I surely would still be stuck in one spot.
There has been plenty of instances in life I didn’t have trust in the events and people around me…. Looking back I realize it is self centered of me that my level of trust meant one drip
To think your trust in a situation is what makes things happen or not is absurd.
There are plenty of people who have little trust in God…yet there He is…trust or not.
It’s not about our trust level… but His love level.
Let’s not confuse the difference between willingness and trust….
the leper was willing but he knew it had nothing to do with his trust level..
all about His Willingness:
Luke 5:12-13
New International Version (NIV)
Jesus Heals a Man With Leprosy12 While Jesus was in one of the towns, a man came along who was covered with leprosy. When he saw Jesus, he fell with his face to the ground and begged him, “Lord, if You are willing, You can make me clean.”
13 Jesus reached out his hand and touched the man. “I am willing,” He said. “Be clean!” And immediately the leprosy left him.
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Today’s 5 Minute Friday Word is Trust… I would love to hear what you have to say…so comment so I can listen closely or I can find your writings on this topic.
A Seed Inspired 
” To think your trust is what makes things happen is absurd.” Great point. It reminds me of the man in the Bible with the sick daughter and he asks Jesus. “Help me believe.”
Thank you for your honesty. I love your post.
thank you for visiting.
🙂
T
Painful pasts do make it difficult to trust, yet what a great perspective! Love the line “It’s not about our trust level… but His love level”. Thank you!
yes we live in a culture that tells you to be sad about all the bad things which happened to you… but the truth is… weren’t we brought through so much?
🙂
T
You’re so right that trust has nothing to do with control — it’s about letting go of control. And we don’t have to “work hard” at having more trust, we just have to ask Him to give us more. Love it.
exactly!
as if we could ever work hard enough or trust enough to earn anything.
T
I loved your analogy of the airplane. Just because I don’t believe/trust in something doesn’t mean it isn’t there. I am so relieved to know that my level of trust doesn’t influence or affect Jesus. He is always available.
what a sweet affirmation.
thank you for your sweet encouragement.
T
T…thanks for your honesty here…so sorry for the pain…oh yes…Love is the foundation that all trust is built upon…and flows from…
have a great weekend…
the more people who are honest the further away the lie that “we are alone” has to go.
you have a good weekend too
T
I so appreciate your honesty; for everyone who has a past that makes it hard to trust, it helps to know we’re not alone. I also think you’re right in that our trust does not make things happen. God is all-powerful – and sometimes I think He helps me trust Him even when I don’t know how.
along those lines I think everyone with a painful past should not feel like they are limited in their spiritual growth based on something they went through before.
I want more for myself
I want more for my daughters
and I want more for others.
T
I love your title! The idea of “trust scurvy” makes me laugh, and also strikes my heart. Great analogy. 🙂
Also loved what you said about the airplane–I don’t think I ever thought of trust that way, and now every time I get on a plane (which is often) I’ll think of my trust in the Lord…very cool.
I still remember the day in grade school when I learned what scurvy was for the first time and I remember thinking, what a great word!
🙂
T
Trust is the faith in not seeing and still knowing … still believing.
As usual – an awesome post, T.
Blessings,
Felecia
you are so gracious
thank you.
T
T I love your post and always look forward to coming back for a visit. I appreciate your transparency here. Sounds like you and I have walked a very similar road. God always uses the broken in mighty ways…if we let Him.
P.S. I always thought my white knuckling kept the plane in the sky? lol
Bless you this weekend with your family 🙂
oh my gosh thank you!
and your blog is great robin..I have thought the same thing, in the past…about us having a similar road
HAve a great weekend!
T
woo hoo. nice job sissy. But I bet you get tired of hearing that so often…so, honestly you could have done better…
SIKE!
also that bird flying picture is off the chain….
nono… tell me again…lol
T
oh T, how I wrestle with Trust. Thankfully God is patient and continues to woo me. It seems like two steps forward and one back. But making forward progress. ( you commented on my blog. Yes, Children with Down Syndrome are very flexible, double jointed etc. You should hear the older girls ooh and aah of Lil Gs turnout. I am praying that this, this will be something that she will be able to soar and not be seen as the girl with Down Syndrome. I am hoping her joy of dance will also encourage her to get the exercise she needs later in life, and will strengthen those lax muscles troublesome for littles with DS.)
I will tell my sister about what you said.
T
Praise God that He is always faithful, even when we are not!