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Flock of Braveness

March 16, 2012

Yesterday I sat on my bench in the yard praying about my unbelief…or is it disbelief…or is just plain weakness.

Either way it isn’t something I feel all the time… but every so often I just wonder how long I need to keep this pace.

Granted I have barely eaten anything in five days…and that isn’t me bragging about fasting or anything…it is just I haven’t been hungry since I was sick….so again with being weak.

I had asked Him days ago to show me what He is like…and He had shown me four pictures…since then I have been even more determined to not let Him down.

After discussing my disbelief of how I could possibly keep it all together…to be brave…. without failing Him…I just apologized.

I told Him I hope I don’t let Him down…please forgive me, don’t let my unbelief be a hinderance for all that You have for me.

I opened my eyes and lifted my head and looked up to the bright blue sky….

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A beautiful flock of swans.

Today’s 5min Friday word is…brave.

15 Comments leave one →
  1. March 16, 2012 10:13 am

    Your honesty as you struggle is wonderful to see. I struggle often, lose foot, lose sight but not always am I willing to admit that weakness. It’s hard to admit when you are not brave…but in my weakness, He is strong!
    Praying for you as you continue to search, find and hold on tight to Him.

    • March 16, 2012 1:34 pm

      I believe I used to be like that… and then I read a story of a lady on a missionary trip and she was puking her guts out and green as grass with motion sickness… but she laughed it off and kept going…
      and I thought…OHHHH! so we aren’t expected to be perfect to do the things HE has for us.
      From then on I really felt like sharing the process was as big of a deal as the actually accomplishment of His plan.
      T

  2. March 16, 2012 10:29 am

    Ive never seen swans in the air. This is a beautiful gift. Thank you for sharing with us.
    Im sorry you arent 100% yet. Im reviewing an incredible book right now. “My own worst enemy” by Janet Davis. Pop over to my blog and see what realy grabbed my heart last night. Praying for you hon.

    • March 16, 2012 1:35 pm

      I hope to get time today to check it out.
      The swans were amazing… and at first I admit, I thought they were snow geese…but my brother came over and blew up the photos and said , “no they would have had black tipped wings and some other markings”
      I can’t tell if they are tundra or trumpeter swans.
      T

  3. March 16, 2012 10:36 am

    but that’s just it. you can’t let Him down. even if you sat in your bed and asked for visions of HIm for the rest of your life you’d never let Him down…we can’t. That’s like saying you can give God a bad day…Gods mood isn’t relying on us. (Thank God) He’s God. He’s in a good mood. He loves you and when he sees you he doesn’t see the ugly duckling that you think you are…He sees the Swan you’re becoming
    hearts

  4. Annette permalink
    March 16, 2012 12:48 pm

    How great Thou art! It is hard to believe those critters fly. And who can explain that formation? What a blessing that God would have those geese fly over your head at that moment of doubt. He shows us so much grace.

    • March 16, 2012 1:37 pm

      I know right…so cool.
      and I thought they were geese too at the first sighting but they are swans…no black markings.
      🙂
      T

  5. March 16, 2012 1:45 pm

    Swans are full of grace…and so are you dear one.

  6. Sharon permalink
    March 18, 2012 6:54 pm

    What a beautiful scene God showed you! We all struggle with belief at times…it is when we recognize it that we can allow God to change us.

  7. March 20, 2012 11:58 pm

    indeed what a gorgeous sight… and you didn’t miss it!

    • March 21, 2012 10:50 am

      I know…
      admittedly I didn’t even know swans were a wild animal….lol.
      and to see a flock was awesome and beautiful….and clearly not a coincidence.
      T

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