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my silly-not-thought-out prayer….or what happened at the 4th PFW.

March 26, 2012

Do I tell you what happened at Prayer~Fast~Worship…. or do I tell you what happened the next morning?

(fingers hovering over a keyboard)

He was there.

I wish you were too.  I wish you could have seen both.

~

I said things I shouldn’t have in the first forty-five minutes, to Him, on that Saturday night. Or perhaps He is so good…and He is…He was happy to prove it all.

I asked for something:

to show me it was worth  it in this small church.  I asked Him if He wanted this here…or was it just my desire. (And I knew better). Was our gathering-all-that-He-has-for-us, doing much of anything  in this place for these people. I should have known better…He gave me that vision.  I knew what it  was going to look like….even more what it will look like.  But in those moments before we really enter into His intimate presence there are moments when we say silly things.  I needed to know if it was what He  still wanted….wanted to continue.

But then as He moved the veil away and our Saturday night entered into His presence I forgot all about my haphazard prayer…but He hears it all, even the silent wayward prayer.

He answered my silly-not-thought-out prayer…and it is all worth it.

He answered it loud…and an entire church was overwhelmed….with breakthrough…with renewal or revival… but breakthrough, nonetheless.

Because that is part of this becoming intimate with Him…this asking for the desires He put in your heart…and then receiving them…and Worshiping Him for His Faithfulness.

The Sunday service was wrecked…in a good way… I wish you were there to see how God made sure no one (me) could argue it is all worth it….and I really wish you had been there, to see it start from scratch

I mean…didn’t He tell me what “silence” was way back at the beach….and then you remember what happened!

 I wish you could have seen the pastor step away from the business of church and step into the business of taking people into the presence of Him as he told them all, “We can do the sermon next week”

~

A day meant to be covered in thunderstorms cracked wide open and blue skies and lush green fields broke through with no explanation.

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I wish you could have seen the single father with the tear drop tattoos and the always perfectly pressed dress shirt ,which hides his all consuming arm tattoos….wipe real tears from his cheeks as his little wiggly boys go to the front to lift hands in praise.

~

I wish you could have  heard the testimony of the woman just back from Haiti tell the story of how the voodoo leaders in there believe Jesus dies again every year and they chant all night to keep Him in the grave…and how she felt so good to hear the little chapel in Haiti  sing an allulia chorus on a Sunday morning with the doors kicked open so all could hear His praises.

~

I wish you could have heard the little old lady yelp like a basket woman from a Charleton Heston movie, “Open the windows…get the doors”…as the building could not hold the praises of His people anymore.

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I wish you could have seen the mothers with heavy toddlers and babies in arms sway with one hand raised to bring their handful closer to Him.

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To see the men trying to hold strong with twitchy jaw muscles and lots of blinking

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I wish you could have looked around and witnessed the tear stained smiling faces.

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I wish you could have seen how people who have never had this happen to them just went with it…because it was all Him.

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I wish you could hear it… but more then anything I wish you were part of it.

I am embarrassed about my silly little prayer on Saturday night… because once I was in His presence my prayers were bold and I could feel Him and we stood in His midst…and that was Amazing!

And I tell you now so you don’t think this is some perfectly carried out plan by me…I would have messed it up by now  if it was mine…but can I tell you what it is to work with Him…to say “Yes, I am willing!”

What can I do to help you do this where you are right now?

Your list of thanks will be never-ending.

How do I tell you all about it….when He takes the dry and He lights them on fire?

~

(and just so I don’t loose this which was given to me recently: KrisVallotton.)

26 Comments leave one →
  1. Carol permalink
    March 26, 2012 12:07 pm

    Tears are streaming down my cheeks… What an awesome service it was!!

    God moves and we need to follow it. Praises to Him!!

    • March 26, 2012 12:43 pm

      Oh I am so glad you chimed in here!
      IT was amazing… and I want more.
      You have something powerful…and I can’t wait for it to unfold more.
      🙂
      T

  2. r.elliott permalink
    March 26, 2012 12:11 pm

    Yeah…it worked…yippy…oh how I wish I lived closer…a place where God has room to be God…it can be a rare treasure….blessings to you ,T….

    • March 26, 2012 12:44 pm

      Girl..seriously.. you live in the perfect place to replicate this.
      You could totally do this….and you wouldn’t have to even find a babysitter for 7kids each week….so it would be a cinch
      😉
      T

  3. March 26, 2012 5:55 pm

    well written. sad I missed both, hopefully next week!

    • March 27, 2012 7:37 am

      you needed to rest…and He loves relationship…so I am sure you were right where you were supposed to be.
      🙂
      T

  4. March 26, 2012 6:36 pm

    Beautiful. There is nothing more beautiful than a group of believers – no matter how small or what color or from different tribes and tongues – feeling His presence. And accepting His love. Thanks for sharing. Tears flow just reading your words!

    • March 27, 2012 7:37 am

      awww it was wonderful and such a breakthrough.
      thank you so much for your encouragement.
      T

  5. studiojru permalink
    March 26, 2012 7:09 pm

    Wow T… wow! What an amazing experience!! Such a gift!

  6. March 27, 2012 1:04 am

    Because that is part of this becoming intimate with Him…this asking for the desires He put in your heart…and then receiving them…and Worshiping Him for His Faithfulness.

    absolutely the secret 🙂
    praise God for His blessings

  7. Loraine permalink
    March 27, 2012 10:36 am

    I love what you’ve written! It was an amazing time in the presence of God. I’ve only witnessed this kind of worship a few times and want so much more of it. Tissues, we gotta get more tissues!!!

    Praise God for His patience with us!

    • March 27, 2012 4:28 pm

      I am so glad you chimed in
      I am super glad you were there to experience sunday morning!
      T

  8. Jen Ferguson permalink
    March 27, 2012 11:47 am

    I’ve prayed some silly prayers too, but looking back, those silly prayers crop up when I am not in His presence…yet. Oh, how He rectifies my heart when I come close to Him.

  9. March 27, 2012 2:06 pm

    Thanks for sharing your experience with Him. We can pray silly things in our own minds but when we are linked to his thoughts, they all fade away. Lovely.

  10. Opa Cassel permalink
    March 27, 2012 2:06 pm

    God is so good. It was so great to see God leading the service through his precious people. I am so proud to be a part of Caring where the Holy Spirit is allowed to spread the awesome word of God through everyone, young and old. O What A Glory that shall be was certainly there on Sunday. Thank you T for your wonderful family and the Love and Mercy that is O so present. Love, Opa The Church has pastors but all of us are His Ministers through our hands, feet, mouth, smile, and Love. What a Relationship.

    • March 27, 2012 4:29 pm

      can you believe it?
      amazing… looking around and seeing everyone just stunned.
      good stuff.
      T

  11. Carol permalink
    March 27, 2012 2:22 pm

    Remember there is nothing silly to Him. He knows already what are thoughts are and He loves nothing better then for us to bring them to Him. He wants us to know that He know us so well that we bring all things to Him. We don’t have to have any shame or uneasiness because He knows already. We honor Him when we just treat Him as a friend!! He’s the truest friend there is!!

  12. Jodi permalink
    March 27, 2012 8:56 pm

    I was amazed, blessed, inspired and in awe of the service on Sunday. I’m proud and thankful to have been part of it and left that room with a feeling I have never felt before. My oh, my how the Lord moves when we just give Him the room to doit. “Open The Doors”. Let the people hear. Amen, sister!! God Bless you!

  13. Sarah permalink
    March 28, 2012 10:03 pm

    Rejoicing in all He does and continues to do …

    Splashing around in God’s goodness today … Had to stop by and wade in this glorious place. Hope you don’t mind if I stay a bit and let joy soak deep down.

    Splashin’
    Sarah

    http://justsarahdawn.blogspot.com/

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