You want a word… You read I have that deal with Him… So you asked.
I feel like others could benefit from it…or rather just seeing part of this process… So take this word for yourself…Or read it to help you accept or learn about your own process. If nothing more I hope you can come to this without judgement for how I get to this…because my purpose to post this here is for others to see the process. I hope you can keep this space safe and allow me to let you in like this. I understand we all come from different backgrounds.
So I sit in the quiet and I get nothing… it always frustrates me when I know very little about why someone wants a word… but it is probably better that way. Then I can’t be influenced to think one way or another. So I sit and I can hear kids in the other room arguing about the rules of water polo in the Olympics and I can’t stay focused. Frustrated, I put on some music to drown out the sounds of this house…something that helps me center my prayer, music that beats with a heartbeat of throne room….
I think it is no accident that the pencil tip breaks and I am sitting in front of a keyboard with an open empty screen….
and like gliding through it all, it just flows…..
…He says that He saw you plowing. You plowed ground no one had ever been to.. He watched you …HE sent the Son to shine on you and you kept plowing and HE smiled…and then HE saw you plant the seed… He saw you. You walk the field.. He saw the birds land and they took it away. You picked up the dry dirt in your hand and let it funnel out as dust and HE saw you kick the dirt… but this harvest that He will let you harvest will not be planted by human hands.. it will be a super natural planting… let the birds take what they took,ok… because HE wants a clean harvest that you look way up into the sky and you say” it all came from You”. He will multiply your harvest… He will bless the work you have done…. but He wants you to know that no work you do is needed… He loves you just as you are… you don’t have to prove yourself…your worth… you are a caretaker by nature… you feel worthy when you tend…and HE says he is blessed by you… you are a blessing just as you are… and He will send you to a harvest planted by him… and you will need to gather them together just to bring it all in… you are faithful to Him and HE has loved you in your sleep as much as He loves you in the field…
I hope that means something to you… but know once you ask for “a word” and you get something… it’s up to you to judge it, make sure it is for you. Feeling a bit vulnerable before you right now letting you see me like this. So much hesitation in hitting “publish”…not about the word, that is sound. Hesitation in putting myself out here like this, but someone else out there needs to know; that you have this too. Well if it doesn’t apply…. here is a video that is pretty good…so it won’t be a total wash: