Onto his Big Adventure…
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Separation is the first feeling you share with your child as it enters this side of the world. A sudden separation and then that moment when your soul searches for their’s as you are disconnected in one big push. In the next breath you clutch them to your chest and stare into a face you only previously knew spiritually. Here I sit all extended with this little roly poly joyful belly set to do it all again. Which is a pretty crazy thought right now.
So we celebrated Ascension Day …and this boy who made me a momma…and now he turned into teenager surrounded by his family of 9! I now have a teenager?!?! It’s been a pretty big deal around here. It’s been more of a birthday week then just one day. People coming and going… blessing him into his new age level…assuring him of their love always. I knew what was happening at the end of this week. What would happen today. Another big push… another separation. He is going out on his own big adventure…far away without family. I fretted about what would he need to be comfortable… I tried to anticipate every situation…. but as the car door thuds shut on this thick with F.O.G. morning, I have to take my own comfort in my belief in an actual Provider. I know He loves my son more than I do. Which is a pretty crazy thought right now.
A Seed Inspired 
I never thought of giving birth like that but it makes total sense to me. With each of my childrens’ births I have felt empty afterwards. Like part of me was torn off. Of course this feeling then subsides into joy while I cared for this cute little bundle that I created. How amazing are moms that they let a piece of their soul be removed, then watch it grow and lead it towards it’s own sustainable life? We rock!
oh we rock for sure…
no worries though, I doubt we give a bit of our soul away… I think we just get used to housing extra soul with us as we nurture and grow it. Then it breaks off and we think, “Oh wait!”
It’s really amazing.
T
Loved this glimpse into your world and family. The letting go that comes with a son growing separate to be fully himself combined with the holding of a belly full of life to come. No wonder this is tinged with poignancy as well as laced with a liberal dollop of love. A great post! Over here from Lisa-Jo’s page. Lovely to meet you 🙂 x
lovely to meet you too.
you are quite the wordsmith.
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Thank you
T
Beautiful post! Thank you for sharing!